Currently Listening Oh! Gravity. By Switchfoot see related

Tomorrow it will be a year.  A year since it all started.  For a while there, I wasn't doing well mentally.....losing a grandparent will do that to you.  I thought since I was older, it would be easier, but it's not.  It's almost harder.  I took it very hard.  I may have looked strong on the outside (then again, maybe not) but inside I hurt so much.  I have yet to go to the gravesite....I'm not sure when I'll actually be able to do that.  He was one of my best friends; he loved spending time with us and was one of my #1 babysitters (other than Grandma, of course).

The last few months we've been working on their house, getting it ready to rent out.  This week, I realized how real it really is.....people are interested and are hoping to rent it from my dad.  It'll all be a reality once the house isn't my grandparents' anymore.  For the first time in years, someone else will be living there. 

I know tomorrow will be hard, but on the other hand, I'm glad I'll be busy. 

My dad had a great story today.  Yesterday would have been my Grandma Marge's birthday.  As we've been cleaning out my grandparents' house, we've found lots of money and loose change all over.  Each time we'd find some, we knew it was Grandma and Grandpa saying "hello".  It would sometimes be in the strangest places, and would show up in places we'd vacuumed or walked over dozens of times.  Today's lesson in church was "The Lost Coin" parable.  How appropriate it was for that lesson to be this week.....I don't think it's coincidence, I know it's Grandma and Grandpa watching over us and saying hi. 

Yesterdays

By Switchfoot

Flowers cut and brought inside

Black cars in a single line

Your family in suits and ties

And you’re free

The ache I feel inside

Is where the life has left your eyes

I’m alone for our last goodbye

But you’re free

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday

I still can’t believe you’re gone, oh…

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday

And until I’m with you, I’ll carry on

Adrift on your ocean floor

I feel weightless, numb, and sore

A part of you in me is torn

And you’re free

I woke from a dream last night

I dreamt that you were by my side

Reminding me I still had life

In me

I’ll carry on

Every lament is a love song

Yesterday, yesterday

I still can’t believe you’re gone

So long my friend, so long

Currently Listening Oh! Gravity. By Switchfoot see related

I've survived the first week of my teaching career.  Whew.  I have kiddos in my classroom tomorrow....so I'll be glad to get that going.  I've already been warned about one teacher and one parent who will try to burn me down....but they won't be able to. 

This last weekend I went to Iowa and hung out with my cousin Jessica.  We had a GREAT time.  We went to the Iowa State Fair, and the Cartel/Switchfoot concert.  I can say that Switchfoot is definitely one of my favorite bands of all time....and they continue to amaze me.  They put on a great show.  The best part of the evening was getting to meet them and get their autographs.  As we were going through the line, all I could say to them was, "you're amazing!"  I wanted so much to mention to them that I'd seen them in Omaha and traveled from Nebraska to see them again.  Unfortunately as that was running through my head.....all my mouth would utter was, "you're amazing" with this starstruck glaze on my face.  It was a great experience. 

I have an autographed poster from them.....and I got another autograph on my way home about 4 blocks from my grandparents' house.....a warning ticket.  The week before, I'd gotten my brake light fixed on my car....and the guys who worked on it didn't reconnect the wires well enough....so it seemed to a police officer that my brake light was out.  It was, granted, 2 am....and he probably ran my plates to see if he could get me for a DUI.  Unfortunately that didn't happen.  My grandpa looked the next day...my brake light wasn't out and he fixed a crack that seemed to have been mysteriously placed on my brake light lens.  We fixed it up with some plastic and some glue.  No use to having me spend $200 on a car I'm getting rid of in 3 months.  Thanks to Grandpa....all is well. 

I only worked 2 1/2 shifts this week.  At least I have vacation time..... next week may be interesting if we don't get some kids at the house.

Last night was fun.  Celebrated the 4th with my good friends Matt and Sarah who are getting married on Saturday.  Hung out with a lot of fun people.....and I'll get to do more of that tomorrow and Saturday!  Learned a lot about people and what they think........

Currently Listening Extreme Behavior By Hinder see related

I have had a rough few days.  Work has been hectic, and my car broke down.  I'm glad that I'll soon have a new car....hopefully no more problems!  $294 later my windshield wipers will be fixed and will not be on constantly.  GRR.  I have a report to do for work tonight that I found out about today.  It's due tomorrow.  The kids at work have been crazy.....

I have decided one thing over the last few days.  After everything settles down and I am done with work and my weddings I'm involved in, I'm going on a vacation.  I'm not sure where to yet......but I know it'll probably be one of those times where I shut off my cell phone and don't talk to anyone for a few days.  I need time away to myself.